I am so grateful for loving friends and family... where would anyone be without those they care about and those that care about them? I am in awe of the comfort the little things can do, it makes me want to go brighten someone else's day. I havent thought about others in a long time. And its time I start. I need to get my life into shape and kickstart it into high gear. I had the most wonderful day yesterday. So much love and I am eternally grateful for everyone in my life. Its nice to know that no matter my mistakes, I always have that love.
its so hard to fix me and not us. he's constantly in the back of my mind and i need to focus more on another us. i was humbled yesterday, and started a new page. it hard but it feels great at times... when i need it the most. im excited and a little apprehensive of what lies ahead. but i know that all will work out for the best.
3.18.2006
I am so grateful for loving friends and family... where would anyone be without those they care about and those that care about them? I am in awe of the comfort the little things can do, it makes me want to go brighten someone else's day. I havent thought about others in a long time. And its time I start. I need to get my life into shape and kickstart it into high gear. I had the most wonderful day yesterday. So much love and I am eternally grateful for everyone in my life. Its nice to know that no matter my mistakes, I always have that love.
its so hard to fix me and not us. he's constantly in the back of my mind and i need to focus more on another us. i was humbled yesterday, and started a new page. it hard but it feels great at times... when i need it the most. im excited and a little apprehensive of what lies ahead. but i know that all will work out for the best.
its so hard to fix me and not us. he's constantly in the back of my mind and i need to focus more on another us. i was humbled yesterday, and started a new page. it hard but it feels great at times... when i need it the most. im excited and a little apprehensive of what lies ahead. but i know that all will work out for the best.
3.16.2006
Crashing
it feels like so much has happened since i last updated. i was home for a week following hawaii and then spent a week in cali with dane... one of his good friends from home had died in a car accident and we went down there for the funeral. on the plus side, the byu volleyball team was playing uc irvine that week so we were able to attend that as well.
unfortunately, dane wanted to go home sat night (against my, my moms, and his dad's wishes). i knew i would be driving the whole way (dane gets tired and he was taking nightquill) and i didnt want to drive all night. the car we took down (dane's roommates) had terrible tires... so much so that when it rained in cali i was sliding everywhere so i didnt want to chance bad weather. also there was a storm coming in that night and my mom and his dad didnt want us to hit it. well we did. i made it mesquite nevada with no problems but it was 3 in the morning and i wanted to take a quick sleep. i slept for 3 hours and when i woke up the storm had caught up to us. i got through the pass ok but around st george i ran into some serious snow and hit a guard rail. it put a large scratch down the drivers side. i was so shook up when i got to a gas station i bought 3 tires... the guy said i shouldnt go out again on the old ones (they were really bad). the new tires were great and i had no more problems. unfortunately the first estimate is 2,500. suck. i definately do not need this.
dane and are aren't doing well either. my luck needs to change. i can't take much more. i need to make some changes in my life. its hard to know where to begin. it will take a lot of effort... and that seems weird to me. its so hard for me to make changes. why??!!
work is busy, i may update again in my life.
Quote of the Day: The city of Los Angeles once named a street after Jack Bauer in gratitude for his saving the city several times. They had to rename it after people kept dying when they tried to cross the street. No one crosses Jack Bauer and lives.
unfortunately, dane wanted to go home sat night (against my, my moms, and his dad's wishes). i knew i would be driving the whole way (dane gets tired and he was taking nightquill) and i didnt want to drive all night. the car we took down (dane's roommates) had terrible tires... so much so that when it rained in cali i was sliding everywhere so i didnt want to chance bad weather. also there was a storm coming in that night and my mom and his dad didnt want us to hit it. well we did. i made it mesquite nevada with no problems but it was 3 in the morning and i wanted to take a quick sleep. i slept for 3 hours and when i woke up the storm had caught up to us. i got through the pass ok but around st george i ran into some serious snow and hit a guard rail. it put a large scratch down the drivers side. i was so shook up when i got to a gas station i bought 3 tires... the guy said i shouldnt go out again on the old ones (they were really bad). the new tires were great and i had no more problems. unfortunately the first estimate is 2,500. suck. i definately do not need this.
dane and are aren't doing well either. my luck needs to change. i can't take much more. i need to make some changes in my life. its hard to know where to begin. it will take a lot of effort... and that seems weird to me. its so hard for me to make changes. why??!!
work is busy, i may update again in my life.
Quote of the Day: The city of Los Angeles once named a street after Jack Bauer in gratitude for his saving the city several times. They had to rename it after people kept dying when they tried to cross the street. No one crosses Jack Bauer and lives.
3.01.2006
Recouperation
so hawaii wasnt all it was cracked up to be... prolly the wrong time to go. kinda rainy. and i got a lot of driving in. yes. i was on an island. yes. i drove a lot. haha weird i know. so much so that i no longer want to drive from the rest of my life.
:::: my friend tip is making a funny song on his guitar... he lost the pick inside-how i dont know-so its sounds kinda afrikaans. weird boy ::::
i sometimes feel like running away somewhere. starting over. like completely over. you know like new name. new country. new likes/dislikes. maybe not the likes/dislikes part... i dont think i could ever fake liking tapioca pudding and such. so much to do!! so many responsibilities. i dont wanna grow up i'm a toyz r us kid theres a million toys at toys r us that i can play with!!!
man i slept a lot yesteday, and i feel like sleeping right now. i think it's cuz i go to bed so late. yeah. ooo ooo ooo! i saw harry potter FINALLY. tam/eric and i have been planning onseeing it together since before it came out and we finally saw it! crazy yes. i liked it, but it didn't hold my attention as well as some of the other one's. ya know? and i also got the weird feeling that i missed the first dumbledore... i dont know where that came from. but i do.
welp the throne is calling me! yikes.
:::: my friend tip is making a funny song on his guitar... he lost the pick inside-how i dont know-so its sounds kinda afrikaans. weird boy ::::
i sometimes feel like running away somewhere. starting over. like completely over. you know like new name. new country. new likes/dislikes. maybe not the likes/dislikes part... i dont think i could ever fake liking tapioca pudding and such. so much to do!! so many responsibilities. i dont wanna grow up i'm a toyz r us kid theres a million toys at toys r us that i can play with!!!
man i slept a lot yesteday, and i feel like sleeping right now. i think it's cuz i go to bed so late. yeah. ooo ooo ooo! i saw harry potter FINALLY. tam/eric and i have been planning onseeing it together since before it came out and we finally saw it! crazy yes. i liked it, but it didn't hold my attention as well as some of the other one's. ya know? and i also got the weird feeling that i missed the first dumbledore... i dont know where that came from. but i do.
welp the throne is calling me! yikes.
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